Shades of me

I am moody, negative and cynical.... more than half the time.

And no I dont enjoy this side of myself.

And Mr Hyde reared his ugly head this weekend.

And no I dont enjoy an weekend in Mr Hyde skin.

I want to be humourous, sensitive, spontaneous in your vicinity.

And no I wasnt any of the above.

You were a familiar stranger,

And no, there wasnt a trace of that mesmerising smile.

I threw up in a bout of indulgent bingeing,

And no, it wasnt the alcohol, but the emptiness inside.

I woke up, numb for a moment,

And no, nothing really changed.

My head had a dull ache,

And no, it wasnt a hangover. It probably stemmed from my heart.

I wasted another weekend,

And no, this is not the last of this entry.